hmm.. i missed the hourly news on CBC Radio 1 again.. maybe i'll remember at 12.. tegan and sara distracted me..

in the pool out back water to my chest towel lying in the grass it looks a lot worse than it seems but you know baby that's just me

right.

i should be writing an essay. i'm afraid of drifting, and that's what i think i'm doing. i don't think i'm working to my potential, in fact i know i'm not, but i can't seem to break the cycle. grr.. i'm trying to figure out living, so if anyone out there has a nice place with 3 or less people in the hamilton area let me know.

i'm thinking that living downtown would be nice, in a little apartment.. i might ask matt what he's planning because he doesn't have any really set plans yet, ,and i think i could handle living with him.

see i was talking to tammy last night and she's not sure if she's staying, and i think she feels passionately enough about moving in with Beth and her friends that she should do it. I told her that if she does decide to stay to let me know and i'll move in, if not i'll find somewhere else.

i was talking to ben last night, and if i can find an 8-month lease he said i can leave my stuff at his place and stay there for may if need be. who knows though.. i should decide soon.

i wish i had my own place.

i'd paint each room a different colour, and i'd probably get more work done if my computer wasn't in my room.

and i'm looking for somewhere comfortable. somewhere that is mine. this house doesn't feel like mine because there are more of them than there are of me, so it's their house. i'm not sure if that makes much sense.

i did make one decision yesterday, to my credit:

patrick: so when do you decide to live with me?
me: soon
patrick: april 1 is not far away. don't wait until april 1 and make it an april fools joke ;(
me: i know. i'll come. how about that.
me: i made a decision. yay for me.
patrick: Really?
me: yeah
patrick: Wikkid. You can still change your mind if you want, but for now I'm going to operate on the fact that you won't. Because it gives meaning to my life ;P

so that's that. one decision out of the way. yay me.